Well, it’s been a while! For those of you who didn’t already know, Mim and I broke up a few weeks back…but worry not…we made up about 1.5 weeks ago!
Sounds weird I know, but was all rather horrid at the time (totally me you understand) but I guess something that arose out of not knowing for sure whether I would break Mim’s heart in the future. You see, December was a pretty crap month for me in terms of trips and falls. However, I came to my senses when it dawned on me that my life here on earth is destined to be weird, depressing and terribly confusing at times since there’s a whole 80% of it (the homosexual bit) that’s simply not being lived out.
I’m constantly talking through with Mim and other trusted friends ways in which it should be lived out that are healthy and non-threatening to my doctrinal stand-point but so far, it’s pretty penned up! Another reason why I had gone through this “tunnel” was I had been working on a Workshop entitled “Homosexuality – the Church’s response” which I had intended to be a thought-provoking look at the whole “gay-issue” as it continues to dominate national headlines. Unfortunately, in digging around in this area, the threads of my own value system began to loosen. So I had to call off the workshop. Don’t get me wrong, I still believe that at its most basic point, the practise of homosexuality is not God’s ideal, but I have to admit, that a lot of things aren’t God’s ideal. I guess in a nutshell, I’m happy with where I’m at, but I’m certainly NOT in a strong enough position to champion any “causes” in this area.
And SOOOO…..
I have an interview next weekend at a church in Stoke on Trent. Looking at becoming a Ministry Trainee/Lay-Assistant. Not sure what the title is, but the allowance would be about the same as I was on as a one-year community member of Lee Abbey, plus accommodation and food would be included etc. It's all rather scary, but if I’m serious about pushing the door of ordination then I will actually have to make contact with the door at some point!
I leave Lee Abbey when my contract expires on 3rd May 2007 meaning I will have been on community for almost 3 years. In terms of workload, stress, and impending M.E. if I don’t watch the physical overkill, I’m counting down the days. In terms of life-experience, solid friendships, excellent teaching, scenery and general growth-rate…I will be VERY sad to leave and can quite easily get very tearful about it if I stop and think for any length of time. Lee Abbey has played a HUGELY significant part of what I would call “formative years” in my life and I know how fortunate I am to have been able to have this experience.
One of my closest friends (of almost 2.5 years) also leaves community in 2 weeks…hmmm, not sure how that’s gonna work :(
Well, hopefully it won’t be another 3 months before I type again…but…I’d definitely value your prayers at this time.
Love
D
Sounds weird I know, but was all rather horrid at the time (totally me you understand) but I guess something that arose out of not knowing for sure whether I would break Mim’s heart in the future. You see, December was a pretty crap month for me in terms of trips and falls. However, I came to my senses when it dawned on me that my life here on earth is destined to be weird, depressing and terribly confusing at times since there’s a whole 80% of it (the homosexual bit) that’s simply not being lived out.
I’m constantly talking through with Mim and other trusted friends ways in which it should be lived out that are healthy and non-threatening to my doctrinal stand-point but so far, it’s pretty penned up! Another reason why I had gone through this “tunnel” was I had been working on a Workshop entitled “Homosexuality – the Church’s response” which I had intended to be a thought-provoking look at the whole “gay-issue” as it continues to dominate national headlines. Unfortunately, in digging around in this area, the threads of my own value system began to loosen. So I had to call off the workshop. Don’t get me wrong, I still believe that at its most basic point, the practise of homosexuality is not God’s ideal, but I have to admit, that a lot of things aren’t God’s ideal. I guess in a nutshell, I’m happy with where I’m at, but I’m certainly NOT in a strong enough position to champion any “causes” in this area.
And SOOOO…..
I have an interview next weekend at a church in Stoke on Trent. Looking at becoming a Ministry Trainee/Lay-Assistant. Not sure what the title is, but the allowance would be about the same as I was on as a one-year community member of Lee Abbey, plus accommodation and food would be included etc. It's all rather scary, but if I’m serious about pushing the door of ordination then I will actually have to make contact with the door at some point!
I leave Lee Abbey when my contract expires on 3rd May 2007 meaning I will have been on community for almost 3 years. In terms of workload, stress, and impending M.E. if I don’t watch the physical overkill, I’m counting down the days. In terms of life-experience, solid friendships, excellent teaching, scenery and general growth-rate…I will be VERY sad to leave and can quite easily get very tearful about it if I stop and think for any length of time. Lee Abbey has played a HUGELY significant part of what I would call “formative years” in my life and I know how fortunate I am to have been able to have this experience.
One of my closest friends (of almost 2.5 years) also leaves community in 2 weeks…hmmm, not sure how that’s gonna work :(
Well, hopefully it won’t be another 3 months before I type again…but…I’d definitely value your prayers at this time.
Love
D
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