Greetings

Hello everyone, well since the advent of Facebook (I mean seriously...who e-mails people any more ... really? Honestly?) I have not felt the need to update this website.

In fact, it may even be time to close this website down ... noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Anyway, just to say that I'm looking forward to returning to the town with Coal around the 17th-18th December. I shall be glad to stay in a house with central heating. My fingers are blue and stiff as I write this with almost sub-zero temperatures inside the flat.

We're cursed with electric heaters which, as most will know, you only put on when literally moments from death because they make one's electricity metre look like a merry-go-round.

I think it's a bit of a shame that since I'm already clocking up in the region of £30,000 by doing a simple BA, that I should lose digits through hypothermia in the process. I mean, don't get me wrong ... I'm not THAT spoiled...I know we students are supposed to "rough-it" for a bit...but come on...this is England! The year is 2008....get with it! Most Uni's now offer their students en-suites in halls for goodness sake....all I want is a bit of heat!

Anyways...apart from dying of cold...I'm doing rather well. I have not self-harmed since early July, though the threat of this has not entirely deserted me and still requires your prayer.

I won't bore you with the whole "is he" "Isn't he" saga of my views of the theology of same-sex relationships. As you'll have guessed, they've changed about 6 times since last time I wrote on here...and the ping-pong of fearing I'll go to hell because I need the company of another (and that other just happens to be a male) has made me think unless I make a decision (any decisions!!!!) and just stick with it for a few weeks, I really WILL develop schizophrenia (sp?).

The point is, I'm just me...and as I write this...me is okay at the moment. BELIEVE me, that's a big step forward. I'm 10 days into a new anti-depressant, but I'm keen to try and come off anti-Ds completely at some point. My former Doctor (the best I've ever known and worked with) believed strongly that no one should come off anti-Ds in winter) so I think I'll try probably around April or May. better not to rush it and get it right, than do the reverse and end up jumping off a bridge methinks.

I'm still seeing my counsellor once a week and she really has been the best thing in my life since I discovered chocolate. She's amazing at her job and I wouldn't be at all surprised if she turned out to be an angel...panic-ye-not...I'm not in love with her! She's just bloody good at her job.

I also understand the "condition" of Depression more, my only regret is that more people don't seem to know anything about it...which can be quite annoying when you're in a strong place, and upsetting when you're in a low place. Ho hum...at least I'll be able to educate them when I'm better permanently...YAY.

The college course goes well, and today despite having a wretched tonsillitis (never had it before) I managed to deliver a presentation on the life of a lady in the 18th century. And I mean "lady" not merely a woman...you catch my drift? As in aristocratic. I asked my history teacher if I (and everyone else I know) considers the 18th century to be boring and label it as (nothing exciting happened) based on the fact that it was one of England's darkest chapters re: the Slave Trade. We "free-thinking" students believe that is the case.

So yeah, Semester one finished early January, which probably means my Christmas break will be rife with study, but as a student...I can't hardly complain about that now can I!!!!! lol.

Right, by for now...see some of you soon...

David